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August 18, 2008: Buying Lots of Stuff

August 19th, 2008 by Scott Alan Miller

Boy was I tired this morning.  Oreo was starving having skipped his dinner last night.  He made me getup and let him explore the house looking for food.

I’ve been having dreams that I remember a lot more recently.  In the not too distant past, I went for several years without having any dreams - probably a product of the sleep apnia.  Since being on the CPAP the last few years my sleep patterns have changed and from time to time I will dream a bit.  The past few weeks have been one of those times.

Last night I had a strange dream in which I was something akin to a superhero sidekick.  I didn’t have any super powers but I seemed to work for someone like superman.  In the dream the super hero’s arch nemesis had devised some devious and underhanded means of destroying our hero and we had to come up with a plan to stop him.

I don’t remember any details - now I wish that I had written it down as soon as I woke up - but I know that at one point I had to descend into a crypt or prison deep underground and squeeze through a doorway made of stone that didn’t even seem large enough to squeeze through physically, even with a push.  The underground area was well lit and pretty clean.  Very strange.  It seemed as though just being in such a place should invoke panic, but it did not.

The arch nemisis / bad guy had come up with some way to make one of his henchmen temporarily into a super anti-hero so that he could come and destroy the real super hero.  Through some ingenious plan that I concocted, though, we were able to fool the super anti-hero into destroying the bad guy instead.

Sorry, that was a pretty awful retelling of the dream.

I did some shopping today.  Quite a bit, in fact.  I bought two Seagate 750GB SATA drives for the HP DL145 G3 as well as an additional 8GB of memory for it.  That will take it to a total of 9GB of memory (it ships with 1GB.)  The two hard drives will be in a RAID 1 configuration for redundancy so only .75TB of usable storage.

I also bought a brand new HP DL385 G5 with two quad core AMD Opteron 2.1GHz processors, 4GB of memory (plus an additional 16GB to add to it for a total of 20GB), SmartArray P400 RAID controller with 256MB of drive cache, two Seagate Savvio 15K RPM 73GB hard drives and two Seagate Savvio 10K RPM 146GB hard drives.  This is going to be one monstrous server.  This will, in the near future, be the server hosting SGL, too.

I picked up a few miscellaneous items as well including an HP USB DVD Burner and an APC Back UPS battery system for dad’s desktop as he has serious power issues at his house and it really causes problems with his computer equipment.  This was one major shopping day!

This evening, I tried to buy an Acer Aspire One in coral pink for Dominica for her birthday (which is on Thursday.)  To our dismay we discovered that Acer has not started shipping the pink or brown Aspire One models yet and only the blue and white are currently available.  We had worked very hard to come up with a good birthday idea and now we have nothing.  We might just wait for the pink One to release rather than going for something else sooner.

I worked until seven thirty then we ordered in dinner from Nino’s.  Dominica just got a salad and sandwich.  I decided to try something different and got rigattoni in a vodka cream sause which turned out to be amazing.  I will be getting that more often now.  Very, very tasty and healthier than my usual alfredo sauce.

We watched some of The Love Boat and then it was off to bed.  Pretty relaxing night for us except that Dominica needed to cook Oreo’s food for the week.  He was just about out of food and we just realized it this morning.

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August 17, 2008: Nadine and Clarence’s Wedding

August 18th, 2008 by Scott Alan Miller

I awoke at seven this morning.  I have become so accustomed to waking so early recently that it is getting hard to sleep in even when I am tired.  My CPAP facemask is starting to fall apart and it is time for me to switch to the new one that I got almost a year ago.  I have been avoiding switching to it because I don’t want to go through them any faster than is absolutely necessary since they are rather expensive and dealing with the CPAP shop has been rather traumatic thus far.

We slept in a bit today as yesterday was just exhausting.  I did some work in the living room before Dominica got up.  I was up a few hours before she was.  Oreo came out and laid in the sunlight for a while.

We got breakfast from downstairs, French toast and eggs, and attempted to watch an episode of The Love Boat. Our afternoon ended up being very short.  Before we knew it we were rushing around trying to get ready for the wedding.  It is amazing how quickly the day can vanish on you when you have some place to be at four in the afternoon.

It was not a far drive to the wedding.  It was at L’Affaire Catering on US 22 in Mountainside, New Jersey.  It took us just under twenty minutes to get over there.  We ended up having plenty of time - we were there about forty-five minutes before the service started.

They had a little panic at the wedding - something happened to the officiating minister and he was unable to make it to the ceremony!  Clarence’s father, fortunately, is a minister and was able to step in without any warning.  It really caught him by surprise - arriving at his sons wedding with no intention of “having a job to do” and suddenly having to be the officiating minister!  What a day for him.  He had just come from doing his normal Sunday morning sermon(s) and was rather hoarse.

Nadine and Her Father at Wedding

The wedding was very nice.  I tried to take lots of pictures.  I was very prepared bring two batteries for the Kodak camera.  Both, somehow, were dead.  I managed to get approximately five shots before both batteries were dead.  What a waste.  I had considered bringing the good Nikon SLR and apparenly that would have been the better decision.  One would think that by having two batteries for the same camera that these kinds of problems would not arise so often.

We had a good crowd of residents from our apartment there to see the wedding.  Nadine is very popular around here.  It was nice to get a chance to spend some time with a number of our neighbours that we do not get to see regularly or at least not very often or for very long.

After the service there was a cocktail hour while the wedding party got their pictures taken.  JC, who used to work at our building, was one of the groom’s men as well which was nice as we have not seen him for more than a minute since he left our building to take a nice airline job.

The cocktail hour was awesome.  Not only did we have fun visiting with our neighbours but the food was spectacular.  They had tons and tons of food with all kinds of different stations plus waiters coming around with different items.  The baked brie and raspberry sauce, the mushroom pasta, the penne vodka, the salmon on puff pastry with mustard sauce, etc., etc.  It was great.  It was very, very difficult not to overeat to the point of not being able to eat dinner.

Dinner was awesome as well.  This might be the best wedding food that I have ever had.  Dominica and I both had the baked salmon, mashed potatoes and veggies for dinner.  We didn’t really dance.  Dominica, being pregnant, really was not up for it and with my foot problems we figured that it was best if it was avoided.

We stayed until nine thirty or so.  The crowd was beginning to thin.  We had a really good time and were very happy to have been able to have attended.  The newlyweds are off on a honeymoon cruise shortly for more than a week.

Oreo was so upset that we were gone all day that he didn’t even eat dinner.  He just lay on the bed with us and snuggled as close as he could while we watched a little The Love Boat before going to sleep.

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August 16, 2008: Another Working Saturday

August 17th, 2008 by Scott Alan Miller

97 Days to Baby Day! (26 Weeks, One Day Pregnant)

5 Days to Dominica’s 30th Birthday.  (Thursday!)

NowMedia’s article “Growing Plants the Disney Way” used one of my Disney greenhouse pictures today.

I have been pondering what to get Dominica for her thirtieth birthday.  It is a tough time for gift giving - neither of us has any outstanding items of which we wish (other than the obvious - spare time, travel, etc.) nor do we have any space in which to put anything if we were to receive it.  The only thing for which I know Dominica has been pining for some time is a pink laptop, originally an Asus EeePC but as those have been discontinued in pink the more powerful and up-to-date Acer Aspire One perhaps.  She is addicted to pink personal electronics, as my regular readers undoubtably know.

The issue with any electronic device as a gift is that it is so temporal.  The gift will not last, or at least not last as a regularly used item, and will quickly age and be considered to be old.  Not a long-lasting thirtieth birthday gift.  Other than the laptop we have no other real ideas.  Dominica doesn’t wear jewelry really and she just got a nice watch for Christmas.  Large items are out of the question right now as well.

I had to be up quite early this morning.  Five minutes before six, to be exact.  Way too early to be getting up on a Saturday morning after having gone to bed late after having worked a very long Friday, but what can you do?

I worked all morning for the office and then had a little time to myself around the middle of the day.  At eleven Dominica drove up to Nutley, NJ to get her hair cut.  It is her first hair cut since she had it cut in preparation for our last trip to the United Kingdom in November.

My day, although it involved getting up early and doing formal “work” all morning, is actually an incredibly relaxing one.  I have no huge deadlines looming over me today and my to-do list, while always expansive, doesn’t have any really hot, “must-do” items that have to be addressed today.  i am pretty much caught up on several fronts and I get to work on some more “fun” items and relax a bit.

I did a bit of reading today, both in “The Zen of CSS Design” and “The Sex Lives of Cannibals.”  Dominica spent the afternoon watching Funny Girl and Funny Lady with Barbara Streisand and Omar Sherif.

I spent a bit of the afternoon working on some PHP programming.  I have a project that has been on the back burner for way too long and I need to get it “completed”.  Right now the project is straight PHP with an XHTML/CSS interface.  Down the road I am thinking about converting it to Ruby on Rails and using an AJAX framework to make it really schnazzy.  Something like the YUI or Dojo.

We ordered in pizza for dinner from Brazilian Pizza tonight.  For the meal we got milho verde and for dessert we tried banana pizza.  Dominica really like the banana pizza but for me it wasn’t sweet enough to be a dessert pizza but I could tell that the idea of banana pizza was really good.  I think that the obvious choice would be to make a chocolate and banana pizza.  That would be awesome.

We finished watching Harry and the Hendersons and then watched two episodes of the second half of the first season of The Love Boat.

Tomorrow is going to be a very busy day.  In the morning I will be doing some work but before too long we have to get ready to leave as we have Nadine and Clarence’s wedding to attend at four down in Mountainside, NJ.

I didn’t get checked out from the office until almost eight in the evening.  I was stuck supporting the continuity of business test for over thirteen hours.  It was a long day being trapped at the computer.  Several hours of that were on active conference calls.  I have no scheduled work for tomorrow.

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The Case Against SAN

August 16th, 2008 by Scott Alan Miller

Despite an inflamatory post title, I believe that SAN (Storage Area Networks) is a great technology with numerous scenarious where it is the exact right technology and several scenarios that only exist because of SAN’s availability.  However, that being said, many enterprises today use SAN without doing any proper strategy, architecture or engineering.  It is being chosen as a technology not because of its appropriatness to the task at hand but simly because technology managers see it as easier, or more popular, to use it broadly than to carefully evaluate each system in question based on technical and financial factors.

SAN is an amazing technology that wonderfully compliments virtualization, clustering and other advanced use case scenarios.  Not every machine is using these types of scenarios and SAN has many downsides that need to be carefully considered before implementing it blindly.

SAN is Complex. Simply by chosing to use SAN we introduce another layer of complexity into the server equation.  (I am assuming server use situations here as SAN is nearly unheard of in the desktop space.  That being said, I use SAN on my own desktop.)  Having SAN means that either your system administrators need to wear yet another hat or you need to hire and maintain a dedicated storage administration, and possibly engineering, staff.

It also means that you will probably need to deal with sourcing and managing a fibre channel network along with the associated HBAs, fiber optics, etc.  Servers that would otherwise have just three simple Ethernet connections (I’m generalizing horribly here) are suddenly up to five or more connections making your datacenter folks oh so happy.

SAN is Expensive. Unless you opt to use a shared network SAN technology like iSCSI (or Z-SAN) then SAN introduces an expensive array of proprietary networking hardware, cabling and host bus adapters.  Only after all of those expenses must we consider the cost of the SAN itself.  SAN systems are generally quite expensive and only begin to approach being cost effective when utilization rates are extremely high and the systems are very large.  Heavy up front investments can make SAN difficult to cost justify even if long term utilization rates might be high.

SAN is Not Performant. High speed SAN networks, massive switching fabrics and huge drive arrays all play into an expensive and mostly futile attempt to get SAN technologies to perform at or near traditional direct attached storage technologies.  During the Parallel SCSI and PATA drive era, fibre channel SAN had an advantage over most local drives simply because of the high performance of its networking infrastructure.  Today this is not the case.

Unlike shared bandwidth technologies like Parallel SCSI and Parallel ATA (PATA), SAS and SATA drives have dedicated, full duplex bandwidth per device providing greatly increased transfer rates while lowering latency.  Only the largest, most expensive of high performance SAN systems could hope to overcome this gap in technology.

Typical SAN systems tend to use, in my experience, SATA devices traditionally running at 7,200 RPM.  Local drives are often SAS drives running at 15,000 RPM.  Often, especially in the AMD and Intel server worlds, local drives are handled via high powered RAID controller cards with dedicated processors and their own cache.  These cards move the cache closer to the system memory making their burstable throughput far greater than can normally be acheived in a SAN situation.

SAN is Not Easily Tunable. In most situations, SAN is managed as a single, giant storage entity.  Tuning is performed to an entire array but little thought is generally given to small segments within an array.

This is made nearly impossible and definitely impractical by the simple fact that physical drive resources are often shared and the concerns of each accessing system must be considered.  The obvious solution is to just tune for “average” use given no special considerations to any particular system.  If drive resources are not dedicated then we must question where the value of the SAN comes into play.

Drives located on a local machine can easily be tuned for cost and performance as needed.  Careful consideration of high speed SAS versus large volume SATA can be made on a volume by volume basis by the system engineer.  Drives can be grouped as needed into carefully chosen RAID levels such as 0 for raw performance, 5 for high speed random access with some additional reliability, 1 for good sequential access with full redundancy, 6 for additional redundancy over 5, etc.

Drive volumes can also be isolated so that drive systems often accessed simultaneously do not share command paths.  Carefully filesystem design can greatly reduce drive contention and minimize drive head movement for increased performance and reliability.

SAN is Often Political. Simpy by introducing SAN to a large organization we risk introducing new management, new skill sets, new job descriptions and, inevitably, confusion and paperwork.  By separating the storage from the server we create another point of coordination keeping the system administrator from being a single point of contact and troubleshooting for system issues.

Anytime that we introduce a separation of duties we introduce company politics and a chain of communication.  Instead of troubleshooting a single system when a server goes down we have to, in the case of SAN, now consider the server, the SAN box and the connecting network plus the peripheral pieces like the host bus adapters and the local configuration.  What might otherwise be simple, almost meaningless changes like the addition of another drive to expand a server’s capacity by a terabyte, can suddenly scale into major enterprise issues requiring much lead time, planning and expenditure, and, of course, a system outage that used to take minutes to repair could easily become hours as company departments seek shelter rather than simply fixing the issues at hand.

SAN uses Additional Datacenter Footprint. Because almost any server already comes with internal storage capacity, the datacenter space needed by SAN equipment is generally redundant.  Until additional storage capacity is needed beyond that which can fit inside of the existing server chassis the SAN storage is completely additional within what are generally cramped and overutilized data centers.  In many cases when a server needs additional drive capacity SAN is still not necessarily a good option from a footprint perspective as many external drive array systems can be locally attached and use very little datacenter space.

SAN systems require more than simply physical space within the datacenter for their switching and storage pieces, they also require additional power and cooling.  In an era when we are fighting to make our datacenters as green as possible, SAN needs to be considered carefully with respect to its overall power draw.

SAN does not address Solid State Drives. Solid State Drive technology, or SSD, poses yet another obstacle for SAN in the enterprise.  SSD drives are much smaller capacity, currently, than traditional spindle based hard drives but often provide better performance at a fraction of the power consumption.  A traditional hard drive generally draws roughly fifteen watts while a standard SSD generally draws around one watt - a very significant power reduction indeed.

SSDs often have very high burstable transfer rates which swing the performance balance far in favor of the locally attached storage options based on their greatly superior throughput.  For example, a standard Hewlett-Packard DL385 G5 server, a very popular model, as eight 3Gb/s SAS channels available to it for a total aggregate of 24Gb/s.  Six times that of the most common SAN connections.

SANs which choose to use SSD, which is likely to take quite some time because SANs generally lean towards large capacity over performance, will suffer from a lack of throughput available but will have the benefit of eliminating almost all issues mentioned early in regards to drive contention from shared drive resources.

SAN is Confusing. While this factor comes into play less often, it still holds true that a majority of server “customers”, those people who utilize servers but are not the server or storage administrators, have a very poor understanding of SAN, NAS, DAS or filesystems in general and by introducing SAN we can inadvertantly introduce forms of complexity that cause communications and support issues.  While not an issue with SAN itself, in some cases technical confusion can impede adoption even when the technology is appropriate.

Bottom Line. SAN suffers from performance, organization, cost and issues of complexity while local storage is well understood, extremely inexpensive, simple to manage and offers extreme performance.  With rare exception, SAN, in my opinion, has little place competing with traditional direct attached storage options until DAS is unable to deliver necessary features such as resource sharing, certain types of replication, distance or capacity.

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August 15, 2008: Spending Friday at the Patisserie

August 16th, 2008 by Scott Alan Miller

98 Days to Baby Day! (26 Weeks Pregnant)

I discovered some of my Newark pictures being used by Realtor.com today.  Also found some of my pictures over at WorldFlicksSongKick used my photo from a recent concert at the Knitting Factory for promotion on their website.  Squidoo, the Internet Who’s Who directory, used some of the pictures from my teenage trip to Prince Edward Island for their page on famed Canadian author L. M. Montgomery.  An Israeli site called Nana10 is using a pick as well but I can’t figure out for what.  A picture of Oreo shows up in a discussion on dog harnessesFinanza and Borse uses one too.

I was pretty tired when I got out of bed a little after six thirty this morning.  I am covering the morning shift for someone this morning who is have transportation issues.

It is not nearly as hot in the New York Metro today as it has been recently.  Today is actually a pretty nice day.  Rain was expected but only a drop or two threatened this morning and nothing came down until late in the afternoon.

My iPod died on my on my way into the office so I didn’t get a chance to listen to my book for very long.  I did think to bring a charging cable so that I could charge it back up at the office.

For lunch, Ronak and I walked down to Stone, just south of Hanover Square, and had the Friday specials at the Financier Patisserie.  The crab quiche and the salmon sandwiches are amazing.

Overall it was the expected end of a very slow week.  There was a bit more work today than the other days but not that much.  Definitely slow for a Friday.

At three thirty, Katie and I met back down at Financier for afternoon tea.  We had coffee and gelatto.

Evening was normal.  Worked until about seven in the office.  Then Ronak and I went to the Full Shilling for drinks and fried mac-n-cheese on the way home.

I got home around nine.  We ordered in dinner from Nino’s and watched the first half of Harry and the Hendersons which we just got this week on DVD from Amazon.  I haven’t seen that movie since probably around 1992 at the most recent.

We didnt’ finish the movie and went to bed as soon as we were tired.  My alarm is set for five fifty-five tomorrow morning and I have a long day of work ahead of me so I need some sleep.  This is going to be a very exhausting weekend.

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August 14, 2008: House Paperwork

August 15th, 2008 by Scott Alan Miller

99 Days to Baby Day! (25 Weeks, 6 Days.)

Oreo was very insistent this morning that we sleep in.  He was extremely snuggly and just wouldn’t let me get out of bed until eight.

Work was pretty slow again.  This week has been great for that.

A shipment arrived from Amazon today - the second half of the first season of The Love Boat on DVD, Harry and the Hendersons also on DVD, “Presentation Zen” and “Getting It Right: Business Requirements Analysis Tools and Techniques.”  Also arriving today is the new HP DL145 G3 server.

The big panic today was getting the paperwork ready with which the attorneys need to deal tomorrow.  That took a bit of work as we needed to get the paperwork overnighted and all of the shipping companies have abandoned downtown Newark leaving us with no easy way to send a package which was exacerbated by the fact that we don’t really have a working printer here.  Our lives are practically paperless at this point but sometimes that leaves us in a lurch when you have a company like UPS or FedEx that runs based on paper and we have no way to communicate with them because they simply require a printer for anyone not using one of their stores - which have all left the area.

So Dominica had to run to a UPS location to pick up a shipping envelope then had to do all of the prep work to get the envelope ready including printing out the label from work since I did not have a reliable method to print the shipping label myself.  I had all of the paperwork so she had to rush home with the stuff that she had, we put the paperwork in then I ran out to put it into the drop box.

The UPS drop box at 1160 Raymond Blvd. which is listed as having last pickup at eight o’clock online as well as on the big sticker on the drop box had already been picked up at six o’clock!  Thanks UPS.  Nice customer service.  So then I ran to 744 Broad and there the seven o’clock last pickup box had not quite been picked up yet so we mailed the envelope.

Dominica brought home are regular Thursday evening treat of fish tacos from On the Border.  Having discovered that she can get to On the Border quite easily on her way home when Oreo is home with me has added quite a bit to our food diversity which has gotten pretty important to us here in Newark.  Recently we have been eating later and later in the evenings which has only served to limit our food selections more and more.

We watched a bit of the fifth season of Frasier.  Then around ten o’clock, Dominica went to bed and I took Oreo for his evening walk and listened to some of “The Sex Lives of Cannibals: Adrift in the Equatorial Pacific” by Maarten Troost.  Then it was time for Oreo to go to bed and for me to head out to the living room office to work until half past midnight on some exam deliverables for the certification exam on which I am working these days.

Tomorrow I will be home in the morning as I am covering the early morning shift until around nine.  Then I will be going into Wall Street.  The weather is supposed to be nice tomorrow.  I am looking forward to it not being so incredibly hot on my walk in to the office.  I enjoy the walk but I get so warm trudging through lower Manhattan with the heat and humidity of the city radiating off of every surface and the sun blazing down but with almost no wind.

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August 13, 2008: Getting Back to Normal

August 14th, 2008 by Scott Alan Miller

I didn’t get much of a chance to get sleep last night.  Went to bed after midnight and had to be up at five thirty this morning.  I was feeling pretty groggy as I pulled myself out of bed.

I am out in Warren, NJ today as usual for a Wednesday.  I was too tired to read a book and just spent the morning’s commute listening to “Shadow of the Silk Road” from Audible on my iPod.  I managed to finish reading that today.

I got out to Warren nice and early and had an incredibly slow day again.  This week must just be really slow.  Just nothing has been happening at work.  (Other than the obvious.)

For lunch, the gang headed out to Bombay for some Indian.  We can’t get Indian cuisine in Newark and any chance to get it is very much appreciated.

My afternoon was pretty slow and someone covered some of my five o’clock deployments so that I was able to run for the shuttle to catch the early ride home.  I caught the shuttle but when I reached the train station the train was getting ready to leave and I reached the door just as it closed.  So I had to wait for the next train and lost a good twenty minutes.

I got to Newark Broad Street Station and started walking towards home.  Dominica’s phone died and she decided to wait on the street to pick me up as I walked by her.  I had no idea that she was waiting for me because she had not told me that she was going to try to do that so I walked through the Rutgers campus and she never saw me.  She called to see where I was and I was already at Eleven80 in the elevator.  She had waited over half an hour for me just sitting in the car and we had missed each other.  That was crappy.

I was not hungry tonight so I just decided to skip dinner.  I ran down to the deli to grab dinner for Dominica at a quarter till nine and got her French toast and scrambled eggs.  She ate dinner and we watched some Frasier.  She has seen nearly twice as much of the shows as I have.  We are now on the fifth season.

Tomorrow I will be home.  In the morning I have to deal with the paperwork for the lawyers in regards to the new house in Peekskill.  We are getting closer.  We are so ready to be out of Newark.  We can’t wait until it is time to move.  The move itself will be awful but that can’t be helped.

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August 12, 2008: I Can Has Job!

August 12th, 2008 by Scott Alan Miller

I had to get up this morning and drive Dominica to work so that I would have the car today.  I need the car because this evening Dominica and I are going suit shopping because we have Nadine and Clarence’s wedding this weekend and I don’t have a suit that fits these days.  I haven’t really needed one in quite some time - I wear my tuxedo regularly but not a suit.

Oreo is happy to be home, of course.  He would prefer if he only went to daycare three days a week at most and never two consecutive days, and he definitely would never voluntarily give up a sunny day at home laying in the living room.  I hope that the new house - assuming that we are still able to get it given all that is going on currently - has some good sunspots for Oreo.

The house is oriented on an angle with the front door facing northwest.  There are not many windows on the front of the house - just the kitchen and the master bedroom on the second floor.  So the second bedroom, the living room with the deck and the basement office area with the patio all face southeast.  In theory, this could mean some good morning sun for Oreo but unlikely any in the afternoon or evening.  The hill behind the house is heavily wooded, though, so that might limit Oreo’s sun expose.  He would be very sad.  I think that the deck gets quite a bit of sunlight.  He might use that extensively.  We might eventually add a second deck off of the second bedroom which would definitely get a lot of sun being so close to the roofline.  That would make Oreo very happy.

Dominica’s morning was incredibly busy at work today while mine was incredibly slow.  The fact that I did a ton of work last night playing catchup to make sure that nothing was left pending for me helped, to be sure.  In general just no requests or new work was coming in this morning.  One of the slowest mornings that I can remember, ever.

So last night I had a dream that there were two very large insects in the apartment running along the east wall above the windows and that I was in the living room watching them.  Then they got bigger and it turned out that one was a large bat and the other was a crow.  The bat tried to fly out the south window but was trapped and the crow flew at me and tried to attack my head with raptor like claws.  Crazy stuff.

I am doing a much better job these days of managing my email - both at the office and my personal email.  I have a tendancy to leave things in email as a sort of “to do” list and the email grows beyond the point where I can easily manage it and pretty soon there is no way to get anything done because of the email being everywhere.

My whole day ended up being relatively slow.  Almost no requests and no one looking for me.  It really felt like a bank holiday.

In the middle of the afternoon it actually happened… I got an email from my consulting firm asking me to call them.  They said that everything was completed, agreed upon and signed.  I have a contract again and am “back to work”.  I’ve been working all along but without knowing what the situation was going to be.  What a relief.

As soon as the stress passed the wave of exhaustion hit.  I haven’t been sleeping much the last few days and it wasn’t really hitting me because of the concern and stress but once those were gone it was a bit overwhelming.  I found myself mostly useless this afternoon.  Luckily there was really very little work to be done so I was actually staying completely on top of everything even being quite run down.

I left home at four thirty to go to Totowa to pick up Dominica.  We spent the evening shopping.  We bought me a new suit from Casual Male for the wedding (on Sunday, not Saturday like I have been saying.)  Then we had dinner at Cheeseburger in Paradise where I have never before been.  Then we bought me a new pair of sneakers as my current ones are beginning to fall apart.

We got home and Dominica watched some Voltron and I did a little wrap up work before we called it a night.  My grandmother called and chatted for half an hour or so.  My cousin is moving to Albequerque, New Mexico very soon, but that was about all of the breaking news from Ohio.

I am posting quickly tonight as I am very exhausted.  More news tomorrow.  We are tired but very happy!

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August 11, 2008: We have an answer… probably

August 11th, 2008 by Scott Alan Miller

Despite all of the stress, I actually managed to sleep in a little this morning which was good.  I needed some extra sleep to be ready to handle today.  We have no idea what is going to happen.

One nice thing about the HP DL145 G3 that I purchased yesterday is that it is going to replace the IBM NetFinity that I have running at dad’s house.  That old IBM is one of the many machines that I purchased from IBM employee sales back when Andy and I worked at IBM in Endicott, New York.  That means that it is one of the machines that I have owned since before I met Dominica.

The IBM NetFinity is a dual Pentium III 667MHz / PC133 server with 1.5GB of memory and a 10,000 RPM SCSI hard drive.  It is definitely nothing special anymore but it was an amazing machine when I picked it up for $150 or so in early 2001.  At the time no one wanted it because it had the much eschewed PIII “Flip Chip” which I thought was great and short thereafter became the industry standard chip form.  So the machine ended up being a most amazing purchase for me.  It was easily a $1,000+ machine at the time that I purchased it.  And it was new as an “open box” item.  I added two high school SCSI drives to it and boosted its memory from 512MB to 1.5GB and had quite a little workhorse for many years.

That IBM has been with me through several locations and changes in purpose.  It spent some time as my email server, did some virtualization and eventually ended up as a Windows 2003 Active Directory machine which is its current role and has been for many years.  The machine is built in the form factor of a desktop workstation and not so much like a server.  I am interested to see how this unit manages to perform as a desktop at Castile Christian Academy.  A Pentium III 667 is generally around our low end cut-off for performance but with dual processors, tons of extra memory and a faster than usual hard drive this might be a very good machine.  Under certain loads it might just outperform the Pentium III 1GHz machines of which we have a fair number these days.

The DL145 also frees up the older DL380 G2 that I have had as the intended replacement for the IBM NetFinity.  The DL380 G2 takes up more space, uses more power and makes more noise than the DL145 while having less computational power and storage (but higher drive I/O.)  So the plan is to send the DL380 G2 down to Castile Christian Academy to be their new file server as its drive performance is amazing.  It is a fully populated unit with dual Pentium IIIs 1.4GHz processors, several gigabytes of memory and six screaming fast SCSI drives.  It will be perfect for them.  Then dad can scale back to just the DL145 G3 and the SunFire V100 that he already has at his house.  Quite a bit smaller than the machines that he has right now.

My day can be summed up in a single word: stress.  I waited all day for news about my job but got absolutely nothing.  It is twenty past four as I write this and we don’t have any direction at all right now.

We officially ended the day with no good news. We don’t have disastrous news but we certainly don’t have good news.  We have made no ground today whatsoever.  There was a lot of talk but no progress.  The only “positive” thing is that the pass-through vendor admitted to not giving any warning about the pay cut but they are acting like that is not their problem.  They are apparently claiming that they have a contract with my consulting firm that allows them to claim anything that they want and bill retroactively for it and change rates retroactively at their whim.

Dominica got home and we talked for a while.  Neither of us is really able to get very much done because we are so worried about our finances and whether or not we will be able to get the house still.  I did speak to the bank today and they are aware of the situation and are holding tight to see what happens.

Around six thirty we got some news that there is a good chance that things are going to be okay.  We don’t really know the details yet and the final word has not come through but it looks like the parties have come to a solution.  We won’t actually know anything tonight but hopefully in the morning.

I ended up working late into the evening.  Dominica sat at her desk knitting and watching Voltron from Netflix.  I ran down to the deli in the building to grab dinner just before they closed at nine o’clock.  I came up and we managed to watch one episode of Frasier together, while we ate dinner, before the phone started ringing.  It was Mary and we talked for half an hour or so until ten.

I went back to “work” around ten.  I have been behind at the office and I wanted to make sure that I was caught up before the morning.  Or at least kind-of caught up so I spent some time doing some paperwork. I answered some emails and got some paperwork together for dad.

Oreo came out to the living room and lay on the recliner on a pillow and a pile of blankets.  He always wants to be with me.

We have been able to have the windows open all day yesterday and all day today.  The fresh air is great.  I do get fresh air walking to work but it isn’t the same.  I am really appreciating having the apartment aired out a bit.  It actually gets far stuffier and mildewy here in summer than in winter because even during a pretty cold winter spell we still tend to open the windows rather a bit - at very least in our bedroom.

Yay, more people following me on Twitter.  I am becoming a Twitter celebrity.  Okay, not quite.  But I do have several people that I have never met following me.  I am finding it to be an interesting addition to my regular blogging.  I really like the fact that I can put on updates throughout the day to let people know the current status of things without them needing to wait until the next day when the SGL dailies post.

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August 10, 2008: The Blissful Life of the Unemployed

August 10th, 2008 by Scott Alan Miller

Our high stress weekend continues.  Nothing has changed - and that is the source of the stress.  On Friday evening, when talking to real people with real influence, you get the sense that everything is fine and that come Monday morning we will be able to work things out and have a good resolution to the issue at hand.  But then spending the weekend with no communications (even though we were not expecting any communications) gives ample time to sit around considering all of the things that could go wrong and to worry that things won’t go well Monday morning.  Inaction, at least for me, is a huge source of stress.

Oreo had a great time at the party last night.  He had a whole yard and house in which to run around freely and two dogs to play with.  The one collie was eleven and very aged so they could not play but was very friendly and looking for attention from everyone.  It is very sad seeing a sweet dog get so old.

Dudley was there, Katie’s dog, and he and Oreo spent a lot of time running around together.  Oreo does not often get wide open space so it was a nice change for him.  They played pretty well until some kabobs were given to the dogs and some territoriality came into play.  In a surprise move, Duds, who is close to three times Oreo’s size, and a little argument with Oreo and in a flash Oreo was flipped over on his back and panicking.  We had to pull them apart pretty quickly.  That was the end of the fun night for Oreo.  After that he just wanted to be held and to relax.

We had to sleep in a bit this morning just to make up for getting in so late last night.  It was around ten thirty when we finally got out of bed.  I did a little work in the office but only a tiny bit.  Today is my last official day with a contract so I figured that I should at least do something, even if it was only symbolic.

We found out this morning that the Mazda PR5 is not going to be purchased as we had hoped.  We have been waiting for the final approval of the purchase for two weeks, or so, thinking that everything was pretty much finalized and then today, in the midst of everything else, found out that they weren’t actually interested in it.  Of course, bolstering my already hearty dislike for people’s concepts of “vacations”, we would have known this quite some time ago but people went “on vacation” and stopped communicating to the outside world - ignoring obligations because somehow some parts of society have approved the idea of a “vacation” as exempting the vacationers not only from their work obligations but from their personal ones as well.

I think that this concept is probably quite old.  When I was a child (and obviously any time before that) going on a vacation (one that involved travel, at least) meant going to a remote location where postal mail and telephones were impossible to get or unreasonably expensive for anything less than a full emergency.  But that world has past and today with the Internet, mobile phones, BlackBerries, etc. you are no less accessible while in a remote location than when sitting in your living room.  Today, having a telephone that doesn’t reach you everywhere actually costs you more, usually, than one that does not reach you everywhere.

Basically, we live in a world when the traditional concept of escapism in vacations is no longer an intrinsic feature of travel but now requires active, intentional ingnorance (in the tradition, true meaning of the word as a derivitive of the word ignore.)  You have to ignore people trying to reach you.  You have to avoid responding to people.  It is a completely different animal these days.  And this phenominon is not new.  Mobile phones have been making this shift occur since the early 1990s and the Internet has been changing it since the late 1990s.  It has been roughly eight years now, a decently long time, that there has been little to no excuse to ever be out of reach for more than half a day or less.  And now that most people use instant messaging and text messaging via mobile devices all day long any breach in ongoing communications because of a “vacation” has to be completely intentional.

I am not suggesting that people never stop working and never take a break from work.  Moreso I am saying that personal responsibilities are not curtailed in any way by a claim of “vacationing” or being out of town.  People have traditional used the idea of vacationing as a way to avoid responsibilities and communications because it was a difficult claim to dispute.  No one would be able to know if you were truly stuck in a situation without communications or not.  Today that is not true and there are so many, free or nominal cost communications modes and so little change between home, office and hotel in relation to those modes that not responding to responsibilities while away is exactly the same as not responding to them when standing face to face with someone.

If you want some sympathy from me in reference to you being helplessly out of reach you had better be backpacking through Kyrgystan and even there you will likely have intermittent phone and Internet access.  There are very, very few places left on earth where you are truly out of touch and fewer and fewer people who are comfortable being in those situations.  Most people today desperately want to keep in contact via email, phone, web, etc.  Recently I even had a conversation with my friend David while he was hanging out in a cafe in Tunisia.  He was just checking up on his email, FaceBook, etc.  It’s far more interesting, I think, vacationing in places when you can still communicate to the outside world instead of just “disappearing” for a few days and then returning with some pictures.

All of that aside, we are rather happy that we are not selling the car as we think that we will most likely want to have it once the baby arrives in November.  We need a car that can haul some things and will easily fit the baby’s car seat, Oreo, both of us and the baby’s things.  The PR5 also gets good gas mileage and has amazing snow tires.  It just had a bit of work done to it and has been sitting all summer not getting any older so its value to us is probably much higher than its street value and we had been planning on selling it at rather a bargain.  So, other than a certain desperation for cash right at the moment because of the house, we would prefer to hold on to the car.

My afternoon was spent writing a very large BASH script that will take our newly built Castile Christian Academy workstations and turn them into fully ready desktops.  It has to remove all of the unnecessary and inappropriate packages, change repositories, add in needed educational packages, change system files, detect the system’s identity and do all of our standard customizations.  It is rather involved.

I got some word, finally, from the consulting firm this afternoon but it wasn’t encouraging.  Basically, they claim that their hands are tied and they have no contracts to protect them.  It would appear that doing the “right thing” is way too much effort and so instead they see me as a scape goat and are just passing the cuts on to me… including massive monetary gains for themselves.  The original cut was just 7.5% but it escalated to 15.73% by the time that it reached me.  That means that while there was a cut (which was at their discretion and they opted to take) at the beginning I am taking more of a cut than anyone and the only person losing here is me.

In fact, everyone else is making a fortune on the deal - coming completely out of my pockets.  In addition, I took the furlough earlier in the year which was an additional 3.5% or so.  So my total cut, between March and August comes to 19.5%!!  This is insane.  And they wonder why I won’t even discuss the possibility of accepting the cut.  To make things even more stressful I have a very large amount of comp time and 401K money on the line that could very easily be taken away.  At least things look promising to have my contract moved to another pass-through vendor, but who knows what all impacts there could be along the way.  I think I need ulcer medication ;)

For dinner we ordered in Brazilian Pizza again.  It was awesome.  We ate pizza and watched two episodes of Frasier.  We are on the third season still, I think.

The weather is cooler today than it has been in a while so we decided to open the windows and let some fresh air into the apartment.  The apartment has gotten musty and stale.  The air conditioning units did not get cleaned like they are supposed to be because our bed takes up the entire room and there was no way to clear space to do the cleaning.  Or at least we imagine that that is the reason.  Nothing was said to us so we are giving the building the benefit of the doubt that the cleaning process even occurred.  It might easily have not taken place at all.

I was doing some shopping on eBay and discovered an amazing price on a high effeciency Hewlett-Packard DL145 G3 rack mount AMD Opteron based server.  It even comes with the rack mounting kit which is nice.

Andy called and we talked for an hour or so this evening.  Then it was time to walk Oreo, wrap up SGL, do a little work for the office (in the minutes running up to the end of my contract), answer emails, update Twitter and head off for bed.

No wonder it is hard for me to ever actually make it to bed!

This coming Saturday, Dominica and I have Nadine and Clarence’s wedding to attend.  So we will be gone for most of the day.  Every moment that we are not gone I am scheduled to be working - although that is obviously in some question at this point.

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